Its the night of Hari Raya.
I'am all excited about it, Okay not actually.
With the fact that, my whole siblings was here just now including Bro, makes me so happy & all excited about Raya. But when they went back, I felt sober. I don't know. Papa is not here in Spore, he celebrate Raya in KL with Mummy families. And, when think again, Sis is not here since shes already migrate to California. I miss her & her kids. Damn much. How I wish my family will be just like before. I know I can't ask too much but ........... Its Okay, whatever it is, I'm blessed with what I have. Alhamdulilah. Hee.

I'm busy the whole day. Last minute things to buy & last minute things to do. I'm all worn out by the time it was going to break-fast. Haa. And, I fight with Sis all the way, not really fighting, just that busy argueing with her as to where should the sofa goes & everything. Hahaha. Nevertheless, today was such a great day. I'm off again to clean. Again!!!

PS: Selamat Hari Raya to all dear people. Maaf Zahir Batin.

Well, I don't know how to start today entry. My mind went blank for a second though. Hee. Ok, I woke up at 630am just now & off to meet Bf since today is my Science & Math Paper. Bf accompany me despite that he was still sleeply. The plan was that to meet happy pills at Interchange at 7 just now but yeah it was cancel, due to them sleeping late & could not wake up especially Haz. Hahaha. So science paper was Okay. I know I can't pass. So fuck to that subject. Pffft. I meetup with Bf at our usual place & slacked till the rest came down. At 1, make our moved again to EVS since its my Maths paper. Wait for Ain outside but she was late that I make my moved first while the rest waited for me at the coffee shop nearby. Maths paper was actually damn easy but my mind was blank that I forgot almost everything that I have study. Called me a stupid whore. Stupid. Hee. Period now. Don't want to talk about it. So, after that meetup with them back & off to TM since Mandol wanted to buy some clothes. Walk around TM & CS before bidding them goodbye at 530 just now. Stopped at Tampines Mart just now to grab ourself some foods before making back home. LOLs. I hate the henna that I just did. LMAO. Its not so nice. Thank God its not tattoo. Phew. Hahahaha. But I would love to have a Tattoo under my ear. Damn cool but yeah!! Haa. I'm off, spring cleaning again. Haa.

PS: Bf, I love you damn fucking much. Big hugs to you. :)

I just got back earlier on. Been out the whole day with the happy pills. First stop, to Geylang since Haz wanted to buy something. Walk around & around before going to City Hall to accompany Aidil meet his date. We break-fast at LJS since we are on budget. Aidil date came down & walk around Peninsula. Had a sight-seeing for the Formula 1. Sadly, we can't see any. Pffft. So walk around before settle down at Boat Quay. We chill there. Had conversation, cracking jokes & nonsense stuff with Haikal. Make our move at about 1030. Reaching Tamp, had our late super at Mr Teh Tarik before bidding them goodbye at 1130 just now. Haz accompany Bf sent me home. Thanks gang. Okay, I'm lost of words actually. Hehehehe. I'm off to clean now.

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I really-really hope Travis Barker will get well real soon.
I'm sad. I'm going to cry. Thank God, its not EMINEM!
Phew.

So today entry is for Wednesday & Thursday.
Bear with me.

WEDNESDAY, 24th Sept 08.
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Happy Birthday Papa. I love you so fucking much. The best Dad ever.
So, I was down the whole of Tuesday eventhough Bf cracks me a lil bit. But yeah, I was down & I don't even want to laugh about some stupid jokes. So, on Wednesday, someone turn up in front of my house & it was Papa. I was excited when I saw him. Maybe because I miss him or because of $$$. Hahahaha. So, he asked me to get ready & off went to Geylang to search for my Raya outfits eventhough I already have 2. So walk around, & still I didn't managed to find 1 which is nice. Went all the Boutique at Tanjong Katong, yet still. But finally, put at rest when I caught 1 black outfits. I was pretty tired that I just got all along with Mummy. I is not fussy. Hahahaha. So walk around Geylang, thank god, no human traffic jam. Meetup with my Uncle since its already years, I have never meet them. Conversation & all. After that, went to Causeway Point to have break-fast at Breeks. Mummy was craving for it. After that, walk around, & had some deserts at Ben & Jerry & off Papa drive me home. I ate too many for that day, I swear I was fully full. All thank to Papa who really knows how to cheer me up. I love you, Papa. Am sad, Papa is going to KL this Raya. I will never meet him & ask for apologise. Boohoo. Oh well. Back home, busy trying out the outfits. Hehehehehehe. And, Oh, Happy 3rd months, Eva Sofia. (:

THURSDAY, 25th Sept 08.
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Plan to stay at home & clean sone stuff. I did. I wipe the windows & stuff. Hahaha. Had a misunderstanding with Bf. We nearly broke off. Boohoo. So in the evening, I meet him. I waited for him like 30minutes. Damn that dude, but still in my heart, "I love you till the end". So, when he came down, I was trying to make my face like angry or sulk but in the end, we both burst out in laughter. Hahahaha. Typical day, always, we can never be angry or sulk for long. Hahahaha. So, I hug him & he give me a kissed on my forehead. Awwww. After that, went to TM since I wanted to eat LJS. Walk around & back to usual place where we meetup with the happy pills. We went off first since we are going to Bf place to some stuff. After that, meet the rest back at Madi & just chill there before going to dorm.

Got a called from Sis. They are going to Geylang so I hop on & BIL fetch me at Dorm before went off. Walk around & BIL bought a carpet. As usual, jam pack & stuff. Walk around again & again. Proceed home at 1am just now before that, my two mak nenek, did henna. Later I took some pictures of it.

FRIDAY, 26th Sept 08.
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Whats plan for today????
Update tomorrow.
Night babies.

PS: Bf, I love you no matter what. I forgive you.

*Kisses & kisses for you.

Haix. I feel down. I don't know why. Maybe because I miss Papa badly. Or maybe because I just want to be in Bf arms or I just want Mama to treat me normally. I don't want to feel this way cause it yucks. Signs. My body show everything. I'm thin & I know it. I'm like sooooo thin. I don't know why. Don't make me cry!

So, I start my day by waking up super early since the family is soing to the market. Damn, I was so pissed off cause the night before, I sleep quite late or shall I said super later. I had to tak care that baby Sofia. Thank God, she doesn't cry or cranky or else, I don't know what I had got her into. Haa. So, I give her milk & change her diapers, after that, I snored back. Hee. Wake up again, since Granny is nagging non-stop about the laundry. Haiya. I do the laundry & stuff, called up Bf & talk to him for a while. Had breakfast. Since, I'm having the PMS. Sucker! Oh yeah, I haven't eat anything for the past 3days. Damn, and my weighs is 39.5kg. Haa. Called me Anorexia, kering or whatsoever, I don't care. Anorexia bby looks cool. Haa. If, I had one, I would be glad cause when you are in sick or trouble then will your family member will care & trouble themselves to know whats wrong with you. I'm sick of everything where people just don't care about you. Sickening. Okay, am meeting Bf later. I wanna go out & chill. I hate staying at home now. Mama pulling faces to me. Idiot, I hate it w/o me doing anything, she sulk for no reason & Sis keeps bugging me to this & that. Okay, shes sick actually but hello. C'MON. I'm sick of everything. After so much realisation, I do NEED PAPA EVERY NOW & THEN. Cause only with Papa can I cried out everything on my minds. I know my Papa is the best in this world despite "YOU GUYS" saying my Papa is the bad man who did all this to Mama. FUCKED Q & SUCK MY PAPA DICKS, YOU LIL WHORE. YOUR PAPA IS THE BAD MAN TOO!!! Okay, to many harsh words for my 2 fucking SISTER. I end it by syaing, Will update again later. Hee.

PS: KAT VON D is on my artistic wall now. I like it so much. Haa.

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Today entry is for your yesterday post.
So, its pretty much loooooooong.
Bear with me for a while. Hee.

As promised by Bf, that I meet him early at around 930am but guess what, Bf had to ask Sister to wake me up. And, its so hard since the night before I sleep quite late. Hahaha. I woke up at 950am & quickly get ready & all, quickly get the bus & meet Bf at Interchange. Extimated time, I arrived, 1045am. Hahahaha. Thank God, Bf is not angry with me. So we board the train to Far East, since Bf wanted to buy shoes. Walk around, I managed to get myself heels for Hari Raya. Walk again, still Bf didn't get any choices. In the end, it was me, buying a pair of gladiators. Hahahaha. Thought of chilling at Starbucks since, I'm having PMS, but Bf don't want. Pfffft. Since Bf, didn't get any choice, we head down to Peninsula. Walk again & again, finally he caught his eyes on 1 vans shoes. Like Phew, for me, I was tired & the weather is so cheebye. Hahahaha. So, we walk around again, he managed to get shirts & jeans, while me, I didn't get anything. Hahahaha. So after that, grab somethings for ourselves before proceed home. Went to Dorm & meetup with Haikal, Haz, Aidil & Yan, chill for awhile before making back home.

Back home, break-fast & everything, get ready to Bugis for shisha. My first time actually. Meetup with the gang at Interchange, as usual late. Board the train & went to Haji Lane to meet with Aidil friend & had shisha. I swear the taste was horrible, I mean it taste yuckies. While the boys, enjoying every of the minute. Hmmm. Make our moved at about 1115pm, had a misunderstanding with Bf. I hate it so much. And, back home, Mama was making faces to me, at the back of my mind, I NEED PAPA NOW. But, yeah, its hard, and I'm down. Cry myself to bed.

So today, I went out early to meet Bf & chill at dorm since I bring my lappy down. We are cool after Bf said sorry. Hahaha. Haikal came down followed by Haz & Aidil, like usual, cracks joke, talking non-stop, flicks on YouTube 7 stuff, in which evening the boys went home for break-fast. I didn't went home, I waited Bf under his void decks, cause I don't feel like going home. So night, meetup with them again. As usual, cracking jokes & everything. Bid them goodbye at 10pm. Bf sent me home, back home, I clean my room abit. Mama never talk to me. Sis & BIL is enjoying their new honeymoon. Its their new flat-screen tv. And, its 42inch in their bedroom. Crazy & I'm jealous. I need to wait another 2years before getting the 32inch for my bedroom. Damn. Hahaha. Okay, off now, I know its super long already. Hahaha. Good night babies.

PS: Bf, I love you so much each growing days. Muah.
Pictures of shisha. Free looking babies.

I was merely helping them since they are both in dilemma. Khat with Boyfriend while Lucy the lulu with her family. And, what they write in their PM. Hee. Cute. So, thank God, everything is done today with the repainting of my room & reaarange my furniture. Phew, I like it. Yeah, everyday never go out & stay in the room would not make me bored. Haa. I'm having fun with Sis just now while doing the jobs,laughing together, singing the Hari Raya song. And, far most shouting to the Rocks genre. Hahahahaha. And, Mama had to stop us. LOLs. And, especially with Sis telling me story about her secondary life. Hahahahaha. Just now, break-fast was only Sis & me since BIL had to go to school. ANd, once again, jokes crack between us & Mama join the fun too. Hahaha. Just now, I met Bf & Haz at Interchange, went around TM & CS to look for my high heels. And, finally, I make my decision. Yes, all thanks to Bf. He choose for me. Hee. After that, went home & since it was early, I decided to went for cycling. So went cycling around my house & back home. Sis & Mama give some goodies to Bf & thought of giving to Haz, but he turn down. STUPID. Hahaha. So tomorrow, I'm gonna clean again my wardrobe foe like 5th time. Hahahahaha. Nk Raya apa, so semangat cikit ar. Hahahaha. Okay, night babies.

PS: Bf, I love you. My gorgeous girl, you guys cheerup, Okay. You got me. (:

I was busy all the day just now repainting my room cause BIL ask to. I repaint the purple colors & decided to paint half of the walls with Sis left-over orang. It did turn out pretty nice. Eventhough at first, it looks yuckies. And, tomorrow, I think for the half walls, I wanna paint it with Red. Haa. How cool is that? Purple, Orange & Red, Gosh, my room like Mamaks house. Haa. But whos care, it just room & no strangers can come in. I'm bored with same old colors or just one tones. How cool is that?? You tell me. Haa. So, night wanted to meet Bf but he cancel it since he has something on. So, right now, I mugg. I'm bored actually so thats the reason why today post is so craps. So, my sickess came back to me after for about 6 years not having it. I swear, I'm so like monkey & only Papa knows how to cure me. Damn, I hate it so much. Its frigging pain. I don't want to be a monkey. Damn. I really hate it so much. Hope I'm fine.

PS: Bf, I'm sorry.

I wake up as usual today. As usual, I clean the house, did some housechores & everything. Bf wanted to meet me but I hace something on with family, so I had to cancel. And, he sulk. Haa. Emo boy what I called him. Haa. So, afternoon, went to poly with Sis since she wanted to bring Elfie. He sick for the past 2days & his temperature is like 40.1degrees. Sis freak-out but Mama calm her down since Elfie is a special baby, Sis had to keep her eyes on him. And, we just don't want to repeat the old mistake again which happen to Elfie before. After went for his check-up. I went for mine. Thank God, nothing happen or nothing serious in my womb. And, it a normal thing when your having a menses & you feel the pain. Alhamdulilah. Hee. After that, we went to TM & CS since Sis wanted to buy me Raya shoes. I had my eyes on 1 heels which is at Vivo City Charles & Keith. Damn, I wanna it badly. But I think I wanna give it a skip. So practically, I went every parts of TM & CS which sell high heels, but none caught my eyes. Actually, 1 heels caught my eyes & I had it try on but after so much hesitation, its look yuckies on me. So, I reject. Hahahaha.Gosh, I'm so fussy. Hahahaha. So try my luck in every shop I went, but yeah, I is fussy. Haa. So we went back home. Talk with Bf & break-fast with family. Night just now, accompany Mama to the doctor since she comlain about feeling giddy & vomiting. Walked around Tampines mArt & off home. Big Sis & her family came down just now. Yeah, but I didn't managed to captured Danny's face. Haa. Next time, Dan. Haa.

So, you can see, my 4 lil rugrats!!! Gosh, especially Sofia. Damn!!
And, oh, favourites Maksu & Uncle Alep, EZZA BBY!!
Goodnight babies.

Haa. I swear I hate this pictures ALOT.
Gosh, look at my hair. KENTAL SIA.
Vivo on 911.

Pictures do it talking. Bye.
Geylang today with those people.