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Friday, October 31 @ 3:45 PM
JUST A LIED
 Sometimes, its pricked me real hard knowing that everything, around me has changed & most of all, everything is just a lied.
A lie for making me happy.
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Thursday, October 30 @ 11:12 PM
PARCELS OF LIFE
I'am having so much fun just now.
Burst into laughter which make me wanna cry.
I seriously enjoy every minute of it.
But deep down, I feel sad which I don't know to express it.
Really! I just hope I can fade away all my worries.
Especially all my sadness behind.
Which I knew it won't cause it will hunt me back.
Oh well, I just have to pray.
Whatever it is, I wanna laugh like just now.
Bf, thank you for just now. I love your company. All night long.
I love you sweety pie. You really know me best, dear.
PS: I can't wait for the chalet. LOLs.
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Wednesday, October 29 @ 12:45 PM
HAITUS
Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is dandy
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming
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Like I said, I have so much to write about.
But, I don't feel like it.
Meantime, I'm gonna run away from here.
I have so many things in my mind.
And, theres no one to turn to.
Bf been such a sweetie pie.
Mama, shes know me well.
Papa, I really need his comforting words.
Friends? I have them but they never seems to care.
Oh well.
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PS: I will never show my down side, if you happen to chat with me, no worries, I'm alright. Another PS: Pfft! I know my blogskins is plain & boring, but I like it simple.
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Sunday, October 26 @ 12:50 PM
GREAT, JUST GREAT
Great, Sunday afternoon, I'm stuck at home while the rest enjoying themselves. Fucked !!!
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Saturday, October 25 @ 8:18 PM
SULKING, PERHAPS
I'm at Big Sis place now with the Bf. Plan was actually to support Flair Nation at Cineleisure but both of were broke so we give it a miss. And, since nobody informed us about this dance thing. Oh well. I'm lost of words actually. So take care blogmates.
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Friday, October 24 @ 10:29 PM
I LOVE MAMA SO MUCH
.JPG) Big Sis is here & told me never to repeat my mistakes again. She said think of Mama & not think of 2nd Sis. But I can't. I hate they way 2nd Sis treat Mama eventhough Mama might never feel or said anything. But I really hate it. And, I never once think of getting Mama hurt by my action or attitude. I never mean to make Mama like this but I'am just so angry with 2nd Sis after that night incident. I never want to make Mama feel fucked about me. I just want Mama to be happy but 2nd Sis doesn't think that way. How will I ever make them realised that Mama is already old. I never want to see Mama go before I married. But Oh God, they are just being ego. How? I love Mama so much & I will do whatever its take to make Mama carefree again like before. And, I know Mama will never read this but I know Sis will read it. I can't live without Mama. Don't you ever think of doing the same thing just like what you did to Bro. Just so you know, I will do whatever its take to make Mama happy & not by taking care of your kids.
PS: I'm sorry if my words is too harsh or what. And, thats if you reading upon it.
Another PS: Mama is cooking Egg for me now. Still, I'm her princess in her own eyes.
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Thursday, October 23 @ 10:23 PM
ANONYMOUS
I'm sorry if I didn't treat you well today.
I guess I need to search something & I don't know what is it.
Anyway, Happy 45th monthsary bby.
I love you so much.
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Wednesday, October 22 @ 10:16 PM
EVERLASTING LOVE
I had fun today. Meet Bf & Haz at Interchange since Bf wanted to booked his car basic test again, I think. First, to Pasir Ris & cabbed off to Ubi. After that, slacked at TM. Meetup with Yan & off to Ezone. We spent like about 20bucks altogether. Hahaha. Silly, I know. Thought of having dinner at Seoul Garden but instead we had LJS, bby, next time, Okay. All the way at Ezone & meetup with Clieff at cheers & chill at 200plus before they sent me home. At home now, I'm still not in the talking mood with Sis. She making faces & all sort of things towards me. Heck care, you think I don't have a LIFE!! Fuck Q uh. Period. I'm lost of words actually, so yeah, I'm off to watch movie with Mama. Take care, kiddo.
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I know its tomorrow but I really wanna make the wish now.
I know we had an misunderstanding earlier on, but I guess half my life is with you now. I can't bear to let you off. So, please don't ever do it again cause its hurt me so much. I hope you understand bby. I remember the day, I message you & stuff. The special words, "Someone special", hehehehe. Alif, I love you fucking much. I love you so much, bby. And, I want the whole world to know that, "Your forever mine, bby". Its been a long journey for us, I thank you for being with me for the whole of our 45th monthsary. You been so patience with me, you treat me like your sweetest candy eventhough you never like always shower me with gifts but you shower me with your everlasting love. That why, I love you till this day. And, whatever it is, you love me with all your heart. Bby, I love you & I can't live without you. Without you by my side. I'm so happy & proud cause I have you as my Bf. And, 1 thing for sure, I'm so glad that I'm yours till the end of time. Bby, thank so much for everything &&&&.
HAPPY 45TH MONTHSARY !!!!
Its really a very long journey for us.
Your my highschool drug boy, always.
I love you with all my heart.
23 January 2005.
"I love you like crazy
Even More than words can say
I love you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Boy I'm so down when your love's not around
I love you, love you, love you
I love you like crazy
You are all that I want
You are all that I need
Can't you see how I feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real
When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again"
Labels: I love you like crazy.
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Tuesday, October 21 @ 11:04 PM
FUCK Q
I HAD ENOUGH OF EVERYTHING.
YOU JUST DID IT AGAIN.
GREAT, JUST GREAT.
AND, ME, I BEING SUCH A BITCH TO SOMEONE I CALL MY LOVE & EVERYTHING. I HAD ENOUGH!!!! WHATS MORE, ALIF ??????!!!!!!!!!!!
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@ 3:13 PM
LIFE
I'm sick & I'm tired, already.
And, its Okay, its the parcel of life.
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Monday, October 20 @ 1:54 PM
ITS SUX
I'm not in talking terms with the family.
Its feel great, really great. They feel great about it.
And, whatever Papa told me about you are all true.
Yeah, people like you guys shouldn't be respected.
Hell yeah & live long sucker.
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Read it, MAN, what its said is all fucking true. I feel so damn fuck. I wanna kill myself.
Labels: FUCK Q
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Sunday, October 19 @ 12:42 AM
BORED DAY
 Today plan was to have Raya outing with the 4T kids but ended only a few attend. And, it was a totally lame outing. For me, house to house, in the end, 1 by 1 left since they have something to attend. Left only me, Bf, Haikal, Zul & Yahya. Its a totally bored, went to Syakeer house. So long, I never met him. Talks & stuff, bid them goodbye. I had a tiff fight with Sis earlier. I'm totally pissed off with her that I left house to sleep at Bf place. Mama had already given me the green light but Sis was acting like a crazy women. Fuck her. Drop the topic. I'm sad to leave Mama like that, just now. Shit. What, Sis, your such a bitch!! FUCK Q!! Am at Bf place place, gonna sleep early, tomorrow is a long day yet again. Raya outing with Bf ITE mates. Night babies. Pictures, candid moment with Ijah. Hehehe. I love it, Ijah. Hahaha. PS: HADIJAH, awwww, thanks for the surprised KISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
    
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Friday, October 17 @ 11:45 PM
REST IN PEACE, DEAR
I was at Bf place yesterday when we received a call from Haikal stating that our dear x-schoolmate, Raihan had passed away peacefully. Both Bf & I was shocked eventhough we don't know him that well. He passed away due to an illness which we aren't quite sure. But we sure feel sense of loss & the boys managed to visit him for the last time. Life is so unpredictable, whatever it is, "Allah, love him more".
Al-Fatihah.
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Thursday, October 16 @ 11:20 PM
SLEEP OVER
Sleeping over at Bf place.
Movies marathon with his Sister & BIL.
Take care people.
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Wednesday, October 15 @ 11:47 PM
THE FIRST DAY
I still love you just like the first day, you captured my heart through message. And, whos that "special someone".
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@ 8:16 PM
MARY HAD A LITTLE LAMB
 I feel dizzy. I feel like vomiting because I play the swing just now with Bf, Effa & Ezza. All thanks to Bf. Argghh. I'm in good terms with Bf already. He came over to my place & quickly hug me & apologised to me. Hahaha. Oh well, like definitely, I melt & I forgave him follow by a kiss on my forehead. Hehehe. Like usual, he had a conversation with Mama, bring the kids to the playground after that dinner together. Bf just left. Me? I had to clean the house before Sis & BIL came home, its totaly messy, all thanks to the kids. Haiya. Ok, better get going, Mama being nagging. Hee. And, oh, Sofia cry. Bye kiddo.
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Tuesday, October 14 @ 2:42 PM
Monday, October 13 @ 12:42 PM
LOVE
Bf is sick.
I miss him now.
Eventhough, we meet like almost 24/7.
But, I miss him so much.
I just wanna be by his side.
I wanna his hug.
Okay, I feel restless now.
Arrggghhh.
I'm broke.
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I meetup with my baby just now.
And, I was soooooo happy.
Hugs & kisses from him.
He make me melt.
Went off to his place & chill for awhile, before making our way home.
Baby, you get well soon, Okay.
Don't be naughty & stop scolding me like usual.
Hehehehehehehehehehehehe.
I love you so much.
Muah.
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Thursday, October 9 @ 11:25 AM
RAYA WITH FRIENDS
 So, I guess, pictures do it things. Happy browsing. Its was yesterday, Raya outing with the Happy Pills. I'm happy Hadijah came too, we took lots of pictures & stuff. It would be good, if Harfany were here too, but sadly shes schooling. Fanybby, you missed alot of fun & IMYTOO. Hehehe. Okay, I'm off now. I will update later at night, if I'm not so tired. Take care.  THIS IS THE BEST PICTURES OF THE DAY, CREDIT TO "IZWAN AKA MANDOL".
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Tuesday, October 7 @ 6:06 PM
PHYSCO
You ain't my perfect Bf.
All you need me to do is just to listen to you,
& everything is my faults.
You only care about your friends. ******
 Today was such a hell fun with the boys since its Haz 18th. I will upload all video & pictures asap when I get from Bf & Yan. Tomorrow is another long day, so I need some rest now. Night babies & take care. PS: Happy 18th Haz.
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Monday, October 6 @ 9:39 PM
FUCK THE MAN
 Holla people. I had a long day, today. From Lavender to Bugis & to Orchard, to Far east & to everywhere. And, I'm abit tired. I can't seem to upload the pictures now. I will upload them later at night, if I'm not sleeply. PS: I can't smile properly. Because of the ulcers. '-'
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So, right now, I'm gonna post yesterday entry. So bear with me for while.
It was a last minute plan from Haz, got a call from Bf in the morning & told me to get ready asap. But I can't go out since Sis has started working & theres no 1 to take care of the kids. Only Mama & me. So, I decided to bring Ezza along. Thank God, the boys are fine with it especially Haikal. Phew. Haa. So meet them at Interchange & off to Lavendar since Haz need to make a new IC cause his old IC lost in the bus. We waited for almost 1hours but by then Haikal already make move to Tampines back. While, Bf, Haz, Aidil & me went to Beach Road. Walk around, Aidil grabs himeself a cap & off we went to Bugis. We take turn carrying Ezza since she was asleep. Still same, Aidil grabs himself a cap too & off to meet Haikal, Mandol & Khai at Orchard.
Went to Far East & walk around, till Aidil grabs himself an Nike Air Max & he wears straight away. I wanted to buy an dickies bagpack but ... So, after that, walk around & had our dinner at Carls Jr. After finish eating, we bid them goodbye at 9 since Sis keep calling me about Ezza. Took a cab home & had a puff outside my house & Bf went back home. And, me, off to snoring. Can't take it. So, just a random.
Oh, I can't wait for tonight. Am meeting Bf & the boys later for Haz surprised birthday celebration. SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Hahahaha. See you later, if I'm not tooo damn lazy. Take care.
        
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