I do not want my Boyfriend to leave so soon. Well, at least when it is already 2010 or something or when I have something to do in life or at least things to occupied my daily needs. So as for me not to be in love sick or worse getting angry over a small things because I'm gonna miss Boyfriend so much or just I said tooo much. Haha. I know, my turn is here now. Haha. Bf is going to serve the country on my 4years 9months anniversary. Count it yourself. Haha. Well, I hope he can extend it to 2010 since that month, he is on school attachment. Well, let just hope for me. I can't bear to let him go, for sure. And, its 7weeks & not the usual 2weeks. Tell me, by far the most is a week, I never meet him because of the OBS thang. Tell me, how can I endure it??? Hahaha. Lets just hope he can deferred it just 1 more time & that that's. Hahaha.

So past weekend was abit draggy for me. Arguments with Papa. So much for being nice to you yet you accused me anyhow. TSK! Last night, prolly the same old thing, I did, lepaking with the boys at stage. While, somehow its was my usual boys. Before that accompany Yan & Az to wash up their girlfriend. Susah uh, ada mataer yang tak tahu mandi sendiri. Hahaha. Home sweet home for me at 10. Back home, baby Ariq came to visit. I was so happy to meet him. He is so chubby & fat. Hahaha. And, since my 1st Sis is here too, I get them a hint for my birthday. Hahaha. Conversation between Sis, BIL & me;

Me- I'm turning legal soon, birthday present jangan lupa! Tak payah, expensive, belanja me to Hard Rock Cafe pun dah cantik!!! (Smile widely to Sister)

BIL- Apa Hard Rock Cafe? Gua ajak lu pergi Bali, enjoy kt sana, lagi maut. (Sis look at him with a angry look face)

Me- Set uh, lu belanja gue uh. Gue mane ada hasil naik aeroplane semue. (Laugh & Mama chipped in)

Mama- Yelah, nak lapan belas, fikir pasal nak enjoy aje. Nanti balik, mabuk macam Abg ko.

Sister- Lets just see how its goes, if I can ask Mama to jaga my boys, I will bring you there. No promise. (Laughing with BIL)

Mama- (With the jeling eyes)

I always wanted to go to Hard Rock Cafe ever since I was only 10 years only. And that is because my siblings kept saying that I can't go. And now May is going to chirped in any days, I can act arrogant to them. Hahaha. I know turning legal is no biggie-biggie, but it is a biggie to me. *Hint-hint. Hahaha. Okay, April go now, lets May come in. Hahaha.

PS: Power House on Saturday kan, turn right, about clubs, turn left, about clubs too. Haiyo. Hahaha. Party poppers now. Well, them & not us. Hahaha.
Another PS: Well at least, kita tk sibuk kan. Ada orang tu sibuk sangat. Bila sorang, layan kita macam bestfriend, bila dengan member, tak tengok pun kita.
Random PS: I want to moved to Livejournal.

I bet my happy pills now are jumping & dancing like a mad person over at Power House now. Hahahahaha. For the guys, their eyes must be catching all the hot chicks who pass them & my lady must be trying to be so lady-like to attract all the guys there. Hahahahahaha. And, so tell me, Bf & I give it a miss since Bf don't want to enter any club. Chey macam paham kan. Hahaha. And, another reason is, me not being legal yet. PFFFFFT. Hahaha. Okay, anyway, meet up with my lovely A's just now to the flea market over at Clark Quay. It is so suay cause I don't have any cash with me. So, just walk around & admired the things which I can't bought. So much for sweet talking with Papa & end up me being scold by him saying that I need the money cause I wanna go club. PFFFT. So yeah, walk around before bidding them goodbye & we proceed to Airport while the rest to Power House. I wanna go so much. To just sit around & listen to the music but Bf, I UNDERSTAND OKAY. Hehehe. So, Bf & I had a nice quiet time alone at Airport. Roam around T1, T2 & T3 before settling down for Macdonald. I wanted to eat Popeye but both of us were on a tight budget so yeah. Make our move at 9 just now & here I am home sweet home. So past few days was spent with the guys yet again. Whatever it is, it is the same old routine for me. Tomorrow apa plan???? (:

Till then, good night.

Happy 4 years 3 months anniversary, Boyfriend.
I love you so much.

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Yesterday was a blast with the happy pills thought of staying home but Ain dear wanted me to lepak. Hahaha. They are the best. Meeting my lovely A's eventhough just for a short while. We need some warm up before we start a conversation. I know how its feel cause I meet them like rarely weeks or two. But they are the best eventhough we never share secrets or talk about boys. Hahaha. Like I say, their accompany & warm hug is better than sharing a secrets. LOLs. How much I love having them as a friends. And, so so so so, everyone knows that Yan has a girlfriend already so thats easier & no more 'terlepas cakap'. Hahaha. Stupid conversation, lame jokes & shouting like a mad guy. Tell me, are they great? And, only me not being 18th yet. PFFFFFFT. Hahaha. Make move at 10 & home sweet home for me. Well, thats it. My life with wonderful people around me. I learn my mistake & thats is Never Ever get close to people you hardly chill with. I learn my mistake already. Inside info. Hahaha. Today plan, prolly chill with the boys like usual or some private time alone with Bf.

Birthday shout out to Aidil anak Jamal. Hahahahaha.
Happy being legal, dude. Birthday celebration sooner or later. (:

And, so side-tracked, left me in the group to be the another 1 legal birthday coming soon which is in another exactly 1 more month to go. Okay, my words are abit hey-wire. Hahaha. Past few days is alright for me & as usual busy with the kids & house.
And, I'm getting tired over the minutes. Miss the chance to meet my baby Ariq yesterday. He must have grown so giant like his Brother. Hahaha. Oh well. Am lost of words actually, so yeah, a long post next time perhaps.

Meet up with my lovely A's yesterday even though just for a short while.
Ain dear, hope you are okay & doing just fine. If need me, you can just meet me anywhere but with the help from the boys. You should know why. Hahaha. Love you!!!

I don't want this kind of emotional breakdown or this feeling of grudges towards others. I don't want this thing to keep hunting me even now. I just hope I will get up & forget everything & realise how wonderful life is. But, the thang is, I can't cause I saw it with my own eyes. And, I just want to get closer to Allah.

I want to catch a movies, I want some retail therapy, I want to sit by the beach, I want to shop till I drop, I want to get away for some holiday, I want some time alone & I want them to treat me nicely.

If only you know, I scarified so much for you & the family.
I didn't choose to school nor work, cause you need me.
But did you ever play your part on my behalf, no, you didn't.
And, I had to lie to my own Dad & my step-mom.
I look upon Mama if not I would have left all this behind.

xoxo

Been busy for the past weeks, oh wait, am always busy. Is like I'm schooling & working but actually I just sit around at home & lepaking in the evening. And, all thanks to the little rugrats. So, I had my gate away on Thursday. Haha. Sort of like chalet to Bf place. Sleepover for 2days straight. PS2 with his Sister & BIL & some inside info. Hahaha. Friday, meetup with the guys for lepaking & since the Tampines 1 just opened & like usual being the typical singaporean, we make our virgin trip there. Hahaha. And, people were pushing & even stepping on my foot & I was like cursing & cursing. So, canno't tahan already, make our move at about 830 & just chill at the stage while 1 by 1 turn up. And, poor Azmi, hes sick. Hahaha. So at 11, accompany Bf back home as he need to call his Mom & went down back again to chill with the boys but they already left. Baik per. Hahaha. So, we chill at his void deck & talks & talks & puff a smoke, singing to old song & at 12, make our way back home. By 1am, both of us are already sleeping. And, so yeah sweet dream. Wake up at 8 just now, get ready & off for breakfast. Chill under the void deck for awhile before Bf sent me at noon. Reached home everyone was sleeping & me too, sweet dream for me yet again. Hahaha. Converstaion with Mama after that;

Pergi chalet ke pergi mana?

Chalet lah, Mama.

Jangan tipu! I know you dengan Alep.

Mesti lah dengan dia, abe dengan siapa lagi?

Mana lah tahu !!! (With a wide smile)

Mama really knows how to crack me up eventhough she was abit hard on me when I reached home. LOLs. And, finally, I changed my skins after so long. And, I'm getting bored with Facebook already. How ah?? Hahaha. I miss some girls already especially Nadya Vibestation & to my lovely A's. Plan was actually to head to Marina Barrage & a meetup with the twins but Bf couldn't make it since he's down with fever. Next time, Oh, Aidil's legal day is coming & I'm broke already & not forgetting again, a movie marathon later in the middle of the month. Still, I'm broke. Macam mana ne???

I need to changed my bedsheet now before Mama return & yell at me.
Some pictures.

PS: Seriously lah kan, ko so mcm the paham, like OMG. It yucks me to see. Ko sape siak, OMG OMG OMG.

I hate secrets !!! Get that !!!

Am meeting Papa later & gonna do some shopping.
Can't wait for Saturday, Dancework.

My little kids here turn 3rd today. Already bought a Hello Kitty cake for my princess, while the prince will get his cake on Friday. Happy birthday. You guys never know how much Maksu love you both sooooo much. Can't wait for Friday, party popper!!!

Till then, next post sooner or later.