I love your touch today. You were so lovely. Knowing that I'm sick, you took care of me without complaining. Eventhough, I scold you a little bit just now, you didn't even scold me back. I so love today. Your so sxy in the shorts & your character today are so different. I so love loving to see you like this everyday.
I love you, Beng. Infinity big hug to YOOOOOOOOOU.

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Btw kan, I wanna watch this movie lah because there is Nicole Richie!!! (:

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So, pretty much my movies, I wanna catch like this coming months. So, Bf better save up your allowance. You promised some of them already, if not I don't let you catch Fighting. Hahahaha. But will catch it beacuse of Canning Tatum which aka John Cena, you always mention. Hahaha. I already watch the preview. Be it in the cinema or in the Internet, I can guarantee you, this movie will be great. I can't wait lah.

Walk my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
All be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what I'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Looking shit through each other's eyes

And to the rest of the world, God gave you the shoes
That fit you, so put em on and wear em
And be yourself man, be proud of who you are
Even if it sounds corny,
Don't ever let no one tell you, you ain't beautiful

I'M EIGHTEEN ALREADY &
ITS FEEL SO GOOOOOOOOD.
And, Happy 26th Birthday, Abang.
I love you so much.

PS: And, I really hope I will not cry today like any other year cause I'll get too emotional over everything. And, its only mean 1 reason, Happiness.



Check time: its only 904am. And, my dearest Nadya already make my day.
Thank you for the beautiful wish, dear. I love you too babe. (:

Oh why,
I'm turning EIGHTEEN in about 7hours time.

Happy Mothers Day, Mama.
You never know how much I love you & how lucky I'am to have such a mother like you.
And, same goes to all Mother in this world.
PS: I want to be a Mother too. LOLs.

No plan yet for today. Everyone is out for work or school. And, I bet I'll be meeting Bf later to do some grocery shopping. And, Mama is making some mango puding. Yummy-yummy. Just woke up & Mama already nag at me to clean my bed. LOLs. Being Mother, they are so supportive. LOLs. Okay bye. Enjoy your day everyone.

Hello babies. I just got back & I need my beauty sleep now. *YAWNS. Hahaha. Went fishing with Yan, Kelip & Bf yesterday. Yes, only the four of us. I meet my Brother at Changi beach yesterday. Boy, I was so happy to accidentally meet him. I hug him tightly & whisper "I miss you" to his ears. And, he kissed my forehead. I was so happy & no other words can described how I felt at that point of time. I rarely see him since he staying far away from me & another reason is Mama never allowed me to meet him & I was tooooo afraid to meet him & my elder brother. Hahaha. And, my Bf being the brave young men, try to open up a conversation which ended by my Bro saying this, "That time Raya datang rumah Abg Along, malu-malu kucing. Tumbuk baru tahu." Hahaha. And, I get news that my Sister is going back to Singapore & no more California. Insyallah. I will be the happiest girl on earth if Sis has decided to stay put in Spore. Finger-cross. Get some cash from him & he decided to buy me a new handphone on my birthday. Lets just hope he keeps his word. LOLs. Anyway, back to fishing, the boys caught some fish & we dashed for shelter when it is about to rain. Laughing to all those silly jokes. Especially Kelip's bulu ketiak. LOLs. It would be good if the rest of the boys were to came down but they are way to busy with works or personal life. Oh well. Side-tracked, got to take care of the Grannys. Family is out to Malaysia while the kids are at Big Sis house. I'm tooooo exhausted to even went out. Prolly Bf will spent his evening here with my Grannys. LOLs. Okay, check time 11:09am now. I better sleep or else Bf will nag at me. LOLs. Anyway, it is just a random post, so mind your own business!!!! Night-night.

THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY(already).
Hahaha.

Do you know I love this guy so much?? I love him so much & no words can express my feeling. Hahaha. Okay, I will stop with my mushy saying. Anyway, the weekend is here. I can jump like crazy. Hahaha. I feel like I'm schooling & working but actually I stay home & babysit the kids. Hahaha. Anyway, I have my gate away later. I'm going fishing with Bf & Kelip later at Changi. Lets hope Kelip won't change the plan at the very last minute. Oh please. So anyway, Mothers Day is just 2 days left. Mama is going to spent her weekend over at Big Sis house. While the 2nd Sister is going to Malaysia tomorrow. While me, I think I'll be meeting Papa for my advanced birthday shopping. Lets just hope Papa give the green light. Hahaha. I just really hope I don't have a boredom weekend this week. Thanks to my sickness, I didn't get the chance to go out since I have the curfew set by Mama. And, countdown to my birthday. And, before I forgot about this. I have an awesome birthday present from Papa. And that is to fly to Jakarta & meet my pen-pal, Nadya. But he cancel it saying about the swine flu. And, yes, thank you so much swine flu for making my plan corrupted. And, the family holiday to Bintan was cancel too. Reason being, the swine flu outbreak again. Why must it be the flu?? Oh cmon. I really need some gate away or something. I don't want to be stuck here in Spore. I'm getting bored here. Wish I could fly to California & visit my Sister & her family back there. I miss them so much & I haven't even meet my new baby nephew, Ryan. Been sweet-talking to Papa but everything fallen on deaf ear. Baik eh. I rant about something which is not important, see I told ya'll. I will rant & rant about things which is bothering in my head. LOLs. Never mind. Oh, Bf calling. I better get ready. Happy weekend babies.

PS: I miss my usual boys. I miss heading down to Town with them where we had this unplanned meeting. I miss going fishing with them. Where at first semangat, lepas tu satu-satu tidur. Hahaha. I miss laughing to all their stupid & unnecessary jokes. I miss everything about them. For sure!

I'm having this emotional breakdown yet again. I hate to feel this way. To feel unsecure & awkward around me. If only I can change all the people mind & put them at ease. Hahaha. And, I hate where people come & go as they pleased with their own life. I don't know why they can change in a split of second not knowing what is right & wrong. Why do I have to be in this kind of state? Pointing finger at me & Bf. Why must it be us? Always us & always us. Mama always remind me that its Okay if people buat you, jangan you buat kat dorang. I mean what she said is true but I'm the kind of person who will not let other people least a stranger to pijak my head. I hate this feeling. Is that what people said puberty life? Hahahaha. Oh well, never mind. My mind will put at rest when Bf came in & nag & brag about this. Will then, I realised how innocent life is. Bf, where you? I need you to nag at me & put some sense in my head. Hahaha. Side-tracked, I have been spending my time with the Bf lately. I mean just the two of us & no playing gooseberry. Hahaha. I hardly spent time with the boys because some of them are changing perhaps. Hahaha. I'am like a primary school kids. But yes, I feel awkward around them lately. But please ease this feeling away. I don't want to lose them like I lose my TMC before. Never mind, theres just another day. Birthday celebration perhaps later. Bf!!! Hahaha. And so, the family is not doing any good to me either. Thank you so much for making me babysit the kids while you guys have fun enjoying your dinner over at Mad Jack yesterday. Thank you so much. And, the father is no good either but better when he ask me what I want for my birthday present. And, I have been rotting at home ever since 2009 came in. I need a fucking jobs. Seriously need one. I'm broke eventhough Papa give me my monthly allowance but the thang is, it is not enough or shall I said will never be enough. LOLs. Hahaha. And so, counting down to me being legal. I don't have the excited feeling like I always have before. Maybe because everybody not noticing it or it is just me. I don't know.

Hello babies. Must be wondering why on earth I haven't even update about a little of life here. Well, basically I know some people who being reading my blog secretly. And, yes without tagging my tagboard. Well its Okay unless you don't go around spreading rumours about me. Basically because my blog is a some kind of a diary to me. I express everything here maybe it worst or the good things I did. I want to rant & rant about something basically about everything but I know by the time I end this entry, everyone must be fallen asleep. So just a quick recap & Bf been saying this to "Tak update blog, gi delete sudah, habis cerita." Hahaha. Yelah, boys & their saying. Was sick for the whole of last weeks. Me being sick is equal to Curfew. Yes, I have curfew & Mama grounded me for the whole of last week. Even meeting up with Bf under my void decks was such a hassle. I lost my appetite & imagined that I lost 3kg in total. Hahaha. So anyway, trip to the doctor is another yet problem. The Chinese being the typical singaporean changing their seats whenever I cough & sneeze. So much for coughing silently yet they treat me like an alien. And, one of the day Papa came to visit see since Mama called him up & said that I have been sick for 5 days. I really don't want him to know that I was so sick if not he will asked me so much question on my life. I had to endure it when he ask me weather I hit any clubs or not. And so much for talking nicely lepas tu jeling tak tentu pasal. TSK!!! The rest of the day was spent with my botak boy. Boy, you never imagined how you filled up my night. And, the rest was just staying home for me. So thats how I end my April months with May came along & my fever temperature is more worse. Hahaha. But now, I'am better & I just came back from having dinner with the Bf at LJS just now. LOLs. And yes, I'm blesses to have Bf by my side. Guiding me all the way & loving me every minute. So my birthday is just in another 9 more days. EXCITED SO MUCH!!!!!! Hahaha. So Okay, anyway thats my entry for today. I know its nothing interesting. Hahaha. So good night & next entry sonner or later.